Beauty

I guess it's time in life to admit your failures and start to grow up a little bit. Growing up I went to many different church events and they would always talk about how God thinks you're beautiful. In my mind it always something like alsdkjf;aweirjflkdnb;laksd;fliaeur bull****. I just thought that what you saw on TV and magazines defined beauty. No matter how many times you hear that it's not true, it never really hits you until you start to think to yourself... what if they are right.

I never really cared if I had a beautiful face or body but I learned to care if I had a beautiful soul. When I approach someone are they turned away by my disposition to them or am I loving. I thought by making myself a better person I would be beautiful on the inside and that's all that would matter.

Now don't get me wrong - I still think that is the most important thing in life... BUT I have also learned that in fact it is important to view everything about yourself as beautiful. God doesn't make junk, and when I say that I really mean it. In order for you to see yourself as beautiful you need to start seeing beauty in the world. If you pass by a man on the street and are grossed out by his poverty you will never see the beauty in his eyes. His tattered clothes and stinky smell will hold you captive to negative thoughts. I challenge anyone who doesn't see themselves as beautiful to look at ugly situtations in the world and try to find one ounce of beauty. It's not just standing in front of a mirror saying "you are beautiful" that makes you find your own beauty - rathers it's finding beauty in everything else that will help you to realize you fit just perfectly in the world. By focusing on outside beauty of things we normally overlook we will realize in the choatic mess everything to a certain extent has some beauty. And we no matter how we look are no exception.

My bright side today

I've always been one to look at the positive and I have to be honest, there are many times in life when I feel like I am on the brink of only darkness and there is going to be nothing good that comes out of the situation. I am always shocked over and over again when I see the good at the end of the tunnel. Sometimes this good can take days week or even years.

People will promise you that they will always be there - and they won't
People will promise you that they will never hurt you - yet they still will
People will promise you the world - and you will watch it crumble in your hands. . .

But don't worry - Remember... To every dusk there is dawn. And just when I thought one person had taken my heart and shoved it soo deep into darkness another person comes in and lights a candle.

This picture is my bright side...

Todays Awesome Day

So today was a really awesome day in which I did very little of anything.

I woke up - prayer - my cousin Nick came over and John and I made breakfast for him and the house! :) Pancakes and Bacon!!

Then Nick had to go so I went to Red Box with John where we got the informant... it was a really lame movie. I honestly really disliked it. I think it could have been funny if watching it with a big group of people while being excitied!

Then I decided to take a nap and then a few hours later my mom called me and I woke up. I think maybe now I am finally caught up on the abundant amount of sleep that I had been lacking. My life seriously needed more sleep. I did stay up super late last night talking to a good friend. I sometimes think those are the best parts of life - staying up late - talking about nothing important and everything important all at the same time!

I am ready to go home on friday! I am excitied to see my family! :) The older I get the more time I want to spend with my family and the less time I spend with my friends. I don't think its because I can't spend time with them but the older I get the easier it is to relate to my relatives. Ha. That seems ironic - relate - related.

Anyway - Then I ate dinner watched some bones and then we piled a ton of blankets on John for no apparent reason -



Then we played Boccie Ball :) Yay! I lost - really badly... but it was still fun!




Have a great day!

Awesome 80's Prom

So I am trying to take more photos- actually I might even try and get a photo a day... no pressue but just for fun. Anyway last night John and I went to the 80's prom. I couldn't find my camera before we went but I found it when I got home !! ~

Here is a picture of our sweet digs ~
After that we went to Jose` burrito with Sam and Erica - We got some dessert chips and then tried to go and look at the stars. It was too bright outside with the moon and also it was super cold and windy! We came back and hand fun anyway. <3

Our converse party~

Life is Good! :)

Hey All,

I decided to put up some photos from my PIF tour. :) These are just a tiny snapshot!
I mostly put the one with my new LEMAR!! :) <3 I love my lemar. John bought me the Lemar at the Houston Zoo. I didn't have my ID and the guy wouldn't let me use my card - so then I got it as a gift from John! :) Yay!!! You can see that we put him up on the podium!
This is the group of Minnesotans! :) We really enjoyed hanging out with each other and I love them all very dearly! They are my fav!
This is us all nice and pretty after the "celebration". This was a good night - we ended up just hanging around and talking for a really long time. Great people. Great Boys - My Fav :)
This is John and I after the celebration. I was a little sun burnt from the service project earlier that day. I didn't actually do much service but rather walked around being the person who documented it all and made sure everyone wasn't getting hurt. We also talked with the executive director for a long time about our organization and exactly what was going on. She really wants to do a massive service project with our whole organization. I really hope it works out. That would be awesome - help me remember that all the work we put into this is worth something.

DSU is done :(

Well sad news the DSU bus won't be going out... but my letters are printed out so I am going to send them anyway because I will now be going out of Iowa City - Crazy...

I am on the phone with Kelsey right now - she has spring break and is in Ely - I am super jealous of her!

I made homemade bread today - as soon as i walked down the stairs I immediately thought of my grandmother. She makes the best homemade bread ever - I would have to say that for my first ever batch of home made bread it tastes pretty dang good! :) I am super excitied. I did learn however that yeast smells really bad at first! Icky. Oh well!

Other than that I had a really good discussion with John as we were debating the pro's and con's of different tours.

Adoration tonight was good - its always good to spend time with the Lord. I feel blessed that I am able to spend time in adoration. I don't think people realize what a beautiful gift it is.

I am listening to Michael Buble and I will leave you with a line from him that makes me smile:

"You're a falling star, you're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And you're the perfect thing to say."

The Sun Is Out

:)

The sun is out today! :) This makes me very excitied! Also I probably am most likely going to get my boot off tomorrow. I can take it off as long as it does not hurt to walk!

I have a lot more patience than I thought I would when waiting for my news back from Alliance for Catholic Education through Notre Dame. My interview went really well. The guy who interviewed me also had a broken foot which I found was super entertaining. We talked for 45 minutes and the whole time I was at ease. Maybe I was nervous enough before hand to get rid of it all - or maybe it was the Holy Spirit. Probably the latter of the two.

Anyway - We have been practicing for an ecumenical worship service on friday night. Hopfully we get a few people to come. It has been nice because it has been Sam, John, Katie, Nolan and I. I think we are a really interesting group of people coming together.

Speaking of that - I really should be working on advertising for this thing - but alas I am here on my blog because I am going to try and get better at blogging!

I am also going to try and get better at my lenten attempts! I have failed miserably so far- but if I start again today then it will still be good right? You can't change the past!!

Anyway today is a good day... hopfully it continues that way!

Off to lunch with Matt soon!